Lots of Posts Means I'm Avoiding Stuff

      I'm blogging up a storm this week. I'm in full avoidance mode, even though I made my hefty goal list for February. I'm making lists, getting a thought in my head, then going down rabbit holes and links to other rabbits to chase. 

     Yep, I "research" then write when I should be spending my days clearing shelves, going on donation runs, or getting items thrown out. I've not been a complete shut in though. I get outside with the dogs. The big guy chases balls, rarely returning, making me go to him. The old man just saunters the yard, exploring the perimeter. Little Miss watches from the patio doors. I spent a long day at a show choir competition. It was enjoyable, but I probably will not attend more than one a year. When it's not my own kid, there's only so many mashups of Broadway, pop, and movie themes set to choreography that I want to sit through. I had a night out with the mom friends- really therapy session, but not for me this time. 

     I'm cooking and baking too. Muffin breads and two huge zucchini chocolate chip loaves and a few pots of soup all in one week. Other than the mom's dinner and light lunch at show choir, no meals or coffee out. 

     I want to get my taxes done before March but have some paperwork delays. I have picked up my tax statements on my retirement accounts and need to print off W2s from my jobs and Social Security. I need to make an appointment but feel until I have all needed papers, I should wait. My youngest is not doing great again mental health wise. Her meds were changed and she is having a hard time adjusting as well as the constant strain she feels on her emotions with the news outside her door. I missed book club as I was trying to talk her through a meltdown. I'm going up to her place Saturday for some mom TLC. I've got cats to care for, airport runs, and family caregiving. I'm tired now and wonder when I get to try and care for myself. I both desperately need my trip and am incredibly worried about going next month. 

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