A Little Checked Out Tuesday

      We've got more curve balls and rocky roads ahead as a family. I'm in knots about so many things. I'm plugging away at house things, anything I can do that feels like a little bit in my control, a little order. It's the plates of unknowns and chaos the four of us have spinning that feel precariously unbalanced, ready to crash one or all at any time. I hope my kids each catch a break at some point. I know I can't live through their success and happiness. But, it's sure hard to see the challenges and be of no help, other than a soft space for their plates to land. Maybe they'll just crack instead of smash. After all, cracks are where the light gets in, right?

     

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  1. ScarletMay 21, 2024 at 12:09 PM

    I know that feeling well. Thinking of you all , and hoping things turn out OK. Xx

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  2. jjMay 21, 2024 at 1:33 PM

    Thinking of you all, feeling similar knots for various reasons myself. You and your kids have each other, and the soft space you provide for them to crash is amazing.

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  3. AprilMay 21, 2024 at 2:04 PM

    Cracks are indeed where the light gets in, but so does the rain. May it only be a sprinkle and all of you move into the light.

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  4. Cheryl KimbleyMay 21, 2024 at 4:12 PM

    Unconditional love repairs so many things. Hang in there.

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  5. AnonymousMay 21, 2024 at 6:40 PM

    Being there as there mom, helping & listening & just being a source of support is such an immensely valuable thing, even through the challenges. (Hawaii Planner)

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  6. AnonymousMay 21, 2024 at 7:24 PM

    You're got each other - that is really what matters. Hang in there.....together! ((HUG))

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  7. AnonymousMay 21, 2024 at 7:39 PM

    I don’t know if Mercury is in the microwave again or what, but it seems like life is strange and challenging for so many people I know right now. Health stuff, job stuff, moving, more questions than answers. Sending grace and hugs and patience to you and yours. JoAnn

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  8. CelieMay 21, 2024 at 7:40 PM

    I'm hoping the curves and rocky roads smooth out some. Your being a soft place to land is surely very comforting for your kids.

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  9. SharonMay 21, 2024 at 8:19 PM

    Hopefully all will be well, it's just navigating life's curves that can get a little dicey sometimes.

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  10. TreadersMay 22, 2024 at 2:45 AM

    Keeping my fingers crossed for all of you right now!

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  11. LoriMay 22, 2024 at 6:09 AM

    You have each other to lean on and that will get you all through the tough times.

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