A Check-in
I'm amazed how people that I've only met virtually can become such good friends and a support system. I've not been feeling like blogging for several months and not sure when I'll resume. However, I feel I owe so many of you that have checked in by comments or emails to at least let you know I'm still here, still getting from day to day.
I had a successful knee replacement back on August 7th. Recovery has been slow, but is progressing in the manner the surgery and PT team say they aim for. Getting the 0° leg extension, and the 120°+ bend has been the challenge. I'm battling fatigue when trying to walk as long as I'd like and restlessness at night, but pain has been very manageable. I'm working intermittently and will through the rest of September. In October, I'll work around weekly formal PT appointments and daily rounds of continued PT exercises on my own. A few other health issues came to light or resurfaced in preparing for surgery, mainly RA symptoms and this weird alternating high and low blood pressure, so I've had other doctor visits.
Otherwise, life just seems to go from one day to the next. I wish I had big happy news or even glimmers of positive news to share. Things in my life just seem to be in a perpetual limbo, filled with me being sad, still filled with grief and missing both my husband and the life we were supposed to have. My kids are all healthy, so that's good, though all seem to be in that same limbo state as well. I worry a lot about them, knowing my worry does nothing.
Yet, I know though I'm more fortunate than most people. I have family and friends that care for me, so evident the last month. We have enough resources to take care of our needs. I just want more for my and my kids lives than that. I wish you all well and maybe my next post will actually include news.
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| The result of a tiny Target seed pot, planted back in May. I guess this is a glimmer of happy. |
HELLO! One bright light is the new knee and making good progress. (I have 2 and love them both so so much). Be kind to yourself, walking is hard and going to far can create a bad setback. Better to advance a bit at time.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you. Many women and we adult children believe year 2 is much harder than year 1. We expect year 1 to hurt. No one tells us year 2 is the setting in of reality and trying to dig out and find a new way of life not filled with pain and sorrow.
(((((Sam))))) I've been wondering about you. I'm so glad you checked in with everyone. Congratulations on your knee replacement surgery. I hope it continues to improve for you.
ReplyDeleteOh Sam (Out my windows Sister here) I am so glad you posted, we have been worried about you, and Kim is also suffering from deep bouts of depression and grief, she claims the second year is worst, but I am at her side. I wish you a full recovery from your recent surgery and hope things get better. Never the same but better. God Bless!
ReplyDeleteHow nice to hear from you, Sam, and good to hear you've had a successful knee op. Small steps - no running before you can walk! Take good care of you and yours.
ReplyDeleteGlad to see you post. Hope you heal quickly and completely.
ReplyDeleteAs for those plans - I just figured in my life - God saw me going another path. Didn't mean I had to like it - but there was a reason. I still miss my G with a passion, but I have now started having a life of my own as well. It keeps me sane.
Sending you hugs and much love friend. Hope the days get better.
I've been thinking of you often. I'm glad your knee surgery was successful, and I hope the recovery gets easier & you get the mobility & endurance back to make physical activities fun and enjoyable. Your sunflower is beautiful! Sometimes it's the small stuff that we work on that ends up surprising us & bringing us a lot of joy. Here's hoping you are finding those moments as well.
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ReplyDeleteSending you and your kids love. It is ok if you don't come back to blogging, we all wish nothing but the best for you. I hope the knee continues to improve and heal, and that the kiddos continue to do well too.
ReplyDeleteThank you for letting us know about you. I have been wondering how you were doing.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and hoping for some glimpses of happiness amid the grief.
Glad to hear you are on the mend after surgery. I am looking to my upcoming surgery as well. Take your time before blogging again ..all in good time
ReplyDeleteI have been wonder how your knee surgery went. Glad to here you are on the road to recovery. Thank you for stopping it and letting us know.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the checkin. I'm glad the surgery went well, and I hope that physical therapy will soon have you walking easier. Love the sunflower and glimmer of happy. Sending hugs.
ReplyDeleteSo glad to hear from you, and to know that your knee surgery is behind you. All of my friends who have had it done say they wish they had done it sooner - I hope you have the same results.
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I think of you often and have been checking in to see if you've posted. I'm pleased to hear that your knee op went well and that you're making progress with your recovery. The sunflower is beautiful. There's a quote about hope and planting a garden, though I can't remember it exactly. Love Scarlet x
ReplyDeleteI've been wondering how you are doing. Thank you for checking in. I'm glad the surgery went well and hope you continue to heal without too much pain and difficulty. Sunflowers always make me smile. Check in again when/if you feel like it. We'll be here.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for checking in. I’ve thought of you often and have missed reading your posts. Glad to hear that the knee replacement has been a success. Hoping for good things for you and your family in the weeks and months ahead.
ReplyDeleteI am so happy to hear from you. I am glad the surgery was successful and behind you. I never heard the second year was the worst until Kim and you said so. That sunflower would make me happy. My friend's sunflower shed seeds that grew the next year, so maybe you will have more sunflowers next year without trying.
ReplyDeleteLovely to see you back, Sam. Take care.
ReplyDeleteGood to see you pop into blogger. It's been a minute, but I get it. Best wishes for continued healing, both physically and mentally. Blogger will always be here for you when you're ready. Sending hugs.
ReplyDeleteDear Sam, thanks for checking back in and letting us all know how you are doing. I'm so glad your knee surgery is behind you and that the pain was manageable. You're doing so well already with the PT and your determination to keep working at it. Sending you big hugs from across the pond!
ReplyDeleteGreat news on knee replacement, have had my hip replaced so I know how that goes. As for kids, I think it's our job to wish for more for them.
ReplyDeleteGlad you posted... Blessed Be Sam
It’s wonderful to see a post from you - please remember that you are a wonderful support to others and you have been a constant source of comfort and understanding to me
ReplyDeleteSiobhan x
Wonderful to see you here. I hope you heal quickly and without complications. We will be here when you feel ready to post.
ReplyDeleteI'm happy to hear the knee replacement went well. I hope the healing process continues to go smoothly for you.
ReplyDeleteSo very very happy to see this note from you. May your healing continue smoothly. And pleased though I am (as are others) to see you on this site, please know that we all support you in your decisions as to how to move forward in the way best for you, including not blogging. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteIt's lovely to see a post from you pop up, Sam. I'm so glad you've had the op and you're on the long road to recovery. xxx
ReplyDeleteGlad to see this post pop up. I actually lost my husband in a car accident on the day of your last post. Having read what you had gone through has actually lightened my load a little bit. I wasn't as surprised as I might have been. I don't have children so don't have to worry about that, but I never expected to be a widow at 47. Good luck with your recovery.
ReplyDeleteI don't know if you will see this but my condolences Christy. Sending you love.
DeleteChristy, I am so sorry. That is not fair and I'm sending any resiliency I can spare. Please use your support system- my sister's and friends were/ are my lifeline. There's some online support systems that I've tapped into as well. Please feel free to email me if you'd like me to share any links. We all have our own story and needs, but I've found sharing the feelings with those that have experienced such a profound loss, I've tapped into a few tools to get from one day to the next.
DeleteA friend told me that you had posted recently. I usually check every now and then to see if you are posting but hadn't for a couple of weeks. I am glad your surgery went well. I have been told the recovery and the PT are the bigger challenge but I'm sure you will find your way through it all. I am glad to hear that the process seems to be on track. I wish nothing but the best for you. Ranee (MN)
ReplyDeleteYou made my Sunday! I stop by regularly hoping to see you posting. Hugs from me as well.
ReplyDeleteSo happy to hear the surgery went well. I hope you give yourself grace as the sudden changed trajectory of your life has got to be a shock.Virtual hugs. Cindy in the South
ReplyDeleteSo glad to see a post from you and that surgery went well.
ReplyDeleteI appreciate everyone's kind words. Please keep Christy in your thoughts. It's a long road for her.
ReplyDeleteAw, yay! Happy to hear from you Sam! I think of you often and miss your blogging. Christy, please accept my condolences.❤️ JoAnn
ReplyDeleteI am so glad you are still blogging if only occasionally. I am also glad your surgery went well.
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