Downward Motivation

      I've been lazy and I'll admit it. I'm just so darn tired. I think it's a combination of allergies, a bug, and renewed grief after losing my brother. Time is what I have now, so there's no deadlines to answer to other than ones I set myself and of course, Mother Nature. I moved new planted and a purchased hanging flower baskets to the porch as we started last night with a rainy wind that's keeping on today. I didn't want to get beautiful petals blown away. The rain is supposed to linger through tomorrow morning then Thursday dry. I'll need to mow and weed whack, but I like those chores. I suppose more dandelion pulling will be required too. 

     I have done minimal inside housework and even more minimal purging. It's garbage day tomorrow though so want to make sure I get the throw stuff out and later I'll get a donation dropped off. So today, where I was going to drive to the lake, instead that's what I'll do. I kept the big dog daycare booking. With the soaking rain, he'll get a good play day in the indoor area and turfed outdoor without being coated in mudd. Tonight and tomorrow we'll need to walk in the rain, but a good play today will help his energy outlet. I won't have him interrupting me so better crack on.

     Oh, I did get bread started in the bread maker, plus three mini loaves of whatever...banana, applesauce, and cinnamon. These aren't vegan nor is the bread maker bread as I'm trying to use up an about to go bad gallon container of milk. Yesterday I made both a baked potato soup and tuna hotdish to use up some. I should have froze half, but didn't plan ahead so likely will have a bit of waste. 

     The timer is about to go off on the mini loaves so I'll leave you here. Boring post with nothing much to say, but now maybe I can actually get something done.


Comments

  1. KirstenMMay 20, 2025 at 11:30 AM

    Minimal? Cooking, making bread, looking after your hanging baskets? I reckon that's a good enough list for someone dealing with what you are dealing with.

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    1. SAMMay 21, 2025 at 5:45 AM

      I'm not really dealing with more than others in life. But I did have better intentions.

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  2. AnonymousMay 20, 2025 at 12:19 PM

    You are doing a great deal more than you give yourself credit for . The pain of your brothers death is clear in your voice , and I know that Scott is in your thoughts everyday .
    Please be kind to yourself
    Siobhan x

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    1. SAMMay 21, 2025 at 5:46 AM

      You're kind. I still need to be functional and yesterday was not.

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  3. VixMay 20, 2025 at 12:27 PM

    I think you're getting lots done especially with the recent loss of your brother, Sam.
    I remember the excitement of bin day back in lockdown, we used to call the night before "Bin Eve"! we used to tape sweets and little notes to the top of our bins and wave at the refuse collectors from the bedroom window! xxx

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    1. SAMMay 21, 2025 at 5:48 AM

      For the dogs it's double excitement. The gathering of all the good garbage and then the next morning, the trucks come, twice for each bin as one is recycling. Oh, and then there's the excitement of returning the bins.

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  4. Cheryl KimbleyMay 20, 2025 at 1:39 PM

    Give yourself more credit. You are doing pretty darn good considering!

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    1. SAMMay 21, 2025 at 5:49 AM

      Says the lady with a mini farm you're running yourself.

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  5. BelindaMay 20, 2025 at 1:41 PM

    You sound like you are keeping yourself busy. That is so good for you considering what you're going through.

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    1. SAMMay 21, 2025 at 5:49 AM

      Busy watching too many YouTube videos. I'm ready for my little trip with my sisters I think.

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  6. Linda's Relaxing LairMay 20, 2025 at 3:29 PM

    It doesn't sound to me like laziness. You have done some things...good for you.

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    1. SAMMay 21, 2025 at 5:50 AM

      Oh, it's lazy with a spot here and there of action.

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  7. SharonMay 20, 2025 at 7:39 PM

    Sounds like you've got quite a lot done
    As you say, the good thing is that now the time is all your own. Some days I'm more productive than others.

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    1. SAMMay 21, 2025 at 5:51 AM

      I'm just waiting for the productive days to kick in.

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  8. AprilMay 20, 2025 at 8:49 PM

    Thinking of you, dear Sam. You have been through a lot recently with the loss of your brother and it's more than okay to set a slower pace. Be kind to yourself.

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    1. SAMMay 21, 2025 at 5:52 AM

      I was kind and let myself move like a sloth. Today's a new day though with a new list.

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  9. TreadersMay 21, 2025 at 1:59 AM

    It took me ages to realize that I didn't HAVE to be on the go all the time like when I was working. Heck even now I occasionally feel guilty for sitting on the back terrace reading and yet who do I owe an explanation to? Nobody, right? You're very newly retired so probably still decompressing from that, and then add to that losing your brother so soon after I'm not surprised you're so tired. Give yourself grace, you're doing amazing!

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    1. SAMMay 21, 2025 at 5:53 AM

      I suppose, but it's now been six weeks since my last day on the job. I'd have thought more might be done, but then, that's me.

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  10. GinaMay 21, 2025 at 9:36 AM

    It sounds like you are staying productively busy and keeping your mind occupied, to boot. The smell of warm bread baking is amazing - I imagine your home is a cozy sanctuary.

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  11. Ms. SandieJune 15, 2025 at 8:08 PM

    I feel that you are being to hard on yourself. You are doing what is enough for now. Please take care of yourself, and know we are all rooting for you.

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