Sunday Night Thoughts and Week Ahead

      My life seems small after the horrific murders and attempted murders in my state. In my work, I had contact periodically with our elected part-time legislative members and had the pleasure of meeting Representative Hortman. She and her husband were also parents, siblings, friends, as are Senator Hoffman and his wife who miraculously survived, just regular people trying to do right for their community. The world is unbearably wounded and don't know how it can recover with the amount of hatred. 

     I got through Fathers Day. Having no father, my kids no father or grandfathers, and now even my youngest and I with no Godfather (my brother), it's just a day. It's also sad with the leadup to these kind of holidays pushing gift ideas in ads and morning news shows and special features on programs. Maybe someday if my son or I get son-in-laws with children, I'll feel the fun again for it as a holiday. It was always such a fun day in the past when my dad and his dad were alive. We balanced the weekend  between family as my dad's birthday always fell close to or on it it as well. There was grilling and volleyball in both families, water play on the day at the lake. Deep breath, knowing to just get through is all I need to do.

     Having hosted dinner/bookclub/ cards last night, after the adopt a park clean up, I took my time this morning over coffee, then tidied up. I'm not feeling like attending in person church again, especially on days like this, so watched on line. A short walk with pup. I didn't worry about meals as there was plenty to pick from leftovers. My older daughter just wanted a day at home with her dog. I met my youngest and brought her leftovers, including the copy cat lemon Nothing Bundt, which was a hit with everyone. I didn't go in as her roommate tested positive for Covid, testing after she felt flu like symptoms Saturday afternoon. Fingers crossed my daughter stays fine. 

     No extra commitments this week though I have grand pup Friday and Saturday too as the girls are running Grandma's Marathon in Duluth. My son will be working most of the weekend between various jobs so that gives me pet duty. I like it and they seem to like me. My youngest's roommate will be  home so she'll have cat duty at her apartment. Meet the new, to be named kitten, now just referred to as Orange Cat. What a curious ham. 

     I'm hoping I get ball schedules for my niece and nephew,Lacrosse, and assorted baseball, softball, and soccer schedules for great nieces and nephews as I'd like a night or two to watch each week. Most seasons end by August. No trivia this week. One of the college kids has friends joining and numbers need to stay at eight. Of course I could still go and we could split teams up into smaller groupings, but instead I might join sisters for the contemporary music service our church hosts by the river at the pavilion. 

     Admittedly my deep cleaning plans last week were more catch up bare minimum so I'm assigning myself a cupboard or two to sort, purge, and clean. I'm realizing though, those that said I'd use the early days ( am I still early days two months later?) to catch up on sleep and doing nothing, we're right. So far, I have no boredom in retirement and my list of projects or just tasks keeps growing.